smile.

"Smile, it can't be that bad." 

As I was walking home yesterday in a very windy, cold trip back to my apartment.. a random man on the street told me "Smile, it can't be that bad." The entire way back, it's all I could think about. I guess there are days when I feel like the stress of my life is taking over, and nothing positive could possibly happen.

Only a week left before finals start. Luckily I only have one "real" final. The other 2 are just dance finals, which I should probably begin because my Dance Composition final is a solo performance. Right now, and all day actually, I've been working on my Cognitive Psychology presentation.  It's basically a summary of an article we got to pick out and present to the class.  Unfortunately, I picked out a really difficult article that I can't really understand.  Go me.  I wanted to get the majority of it done today because tomorrow I have dance all day, and I still need to make a power-point.  But as usual, I waited last minute.  Gosh, I can't wait for this semester to be over.  Good news tho: tomorrow I have a yoga class before dance rehearsals.  

Birthday countdown: 8 days. =)

tis the season.

Hope everyones' thanksgiving was great. I enjoyed going home for a little and spending quality time with my grandmom and my sister. I wish I could see them more often. My grandmom made a lot of food, although every year she says she isn't making too much. My thanksgiving: tofu, sweet potatoes, green beans. stuffing, cranberry sauce & mushroom. She also made turkey and stuffed cabbage (typical Ukrainian Thanksgiving). Everything was so good!

 My apartment is looking pretty festive these days. It's always nice to wake up to a cheery apartment. And what could be better than holiday decor?! Nada.  Bry and me went to Linvilla Orchards yesterday. I picked up some yogurt covered pretzels & homemade apple butter = Delish. I always like going to Linvilla because it's so pretty and calls for some great photo taking.

Well, my dance show is in 2 weeks, so that is stressful. And the semester is slowly coming to an end [thankfully!], and my birthday is in 2 weeks! Finally the big 2-1. I have no clue what I am doing exactly, but as long as I am having a good time it will be great. So its crunch time kids. Lots and lots of work to get done. Gotta get my grad school applications sent out by christmas.Blah, time for more classes and auditions tonight. Until next time =)

-Nicole.

thanks.

Well readers, it's been quite some time now since I've last updated. But things here have been insane! Way too much work to do lately.. But I will update with pictures from my November in my next post. This post is all about "What are you thankful for?" Honestly, I think that it is a great idea to sit and think about what you are thankful for. It makes you look at your life and realize that you should not take the things that mean a lot to you for granted. So.. what am I thankful for?

I am thankful for:
my family

 my friends

my boyfriend

amazing travels

Listening to : Gravity by Esmee Denters

heart to hearts with my best friend.

This week has been insane:
-Taking the GRE's on Saturday.
-Decided not to move to CA this summer; because of financial reasons.
-Finishing up my collaboration concert piece tomorrow night.
-Collaboration concerts are next Tuesday and Wednesday. Nervous.
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Recollecting.
looking through an old journal tonight. found a poem I wrote in February of 2008. I only am writing in here the first two words of each line because its not something I want to share. But it actually sounds kinda cool with just the first two words..
 She cries
 She hides
 She lies
 She wants
 She hates
 She writes
 She overcame
 She counts
 She desires
 She loves
 She was
 She can't

 She worries
 She wishes
 She thinks
 She'll never.

some other things i've written:

Sometimes the person you are inside gets covered by the person people assume you are.

Under the starlit sky, under the perfect night, on top of your wooden deck, you opened your heart to me.

I kept that picture hidden, and when people asked me why.. I told them it was because we both looked so happy then.

quotes from published material:

"I know you have the best intentions, but I feel like I am a really high second priority to you. That hurts, and the worst part... i'm starting to get used to it." -- If Only (movie)

"i wanted so much to forget the past, but it wouldn't go away. it hung around like an open wount that refused to scar over" - Prozac Nation

"What it didn't sat was that if it did not kill you right away, it would live with you the rest of your life, and then kill you. I wish I would've known that".

Okay, done recollecting. My journal fell today while I was cleaning, so I decided to go and read some stuff. Crazy how much I've changed. And for the most part changed for the better. Or at least in my eyes, I have anyways.  

Time to lay down and fill my head with pointless GRE words. Cool.